“I'm scared all the time. I'm scared of who I am, essentially. I don't necessarily like the person I am. I'm trying to get to know myself and it's been a weird, weird journey. I spent most of my time as a kid believing that I was a vile fucking piece of shit. And I've spent most of my adult life trying to put those thoughts away. I just tried to do a project like this [Farm Spirit] because I feel like if I work hard enough and try to make things that are really beautiful and make people happy, that I can quiet that down, that I'm not this worthless piece of shit.

It's hard but it's getting there. It's hard to quiet that voice down.”